Monday, July 2, 2018

Groundhog Day

It's the weirdest thing.

This whole week had me feeling like I'm living a Freaky Friday movie. I'm so confused. At first I couldn't understand why people from my past resurfaced like the past 6 months never happened, but now I'm beginning to think... Is this life giving me a second chance to do things right with all the wrong people? Well if this is how I have to repay my karmic debt then I guess I better do it right.

Though it had me thinking. I'd been experiencing the same form of pain over and over again in the last fifteen years. I thought about Radical Forgiveness, a book I once read about how the soul recognises our pain and forces us to relive it so we can heal from our past.

I realise that my pain doesn't stem from the love that was denied by other men, but the love I was denied when I was a child (I can see how dramatic this sounds). I'm not the kind of person to hold a grudge. One thing I hate is to remain bitter about circumstances I have no control of. But I thought I had forgiven the past and healed from all those years of neglect. I didn't think I carried that baggage with me into my adulthood.

I could easily point fingers and blame someone for the hurt they caused but I chose to forgive even when they aren't sorry. So why does this keep happening? How do you heal?

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