It's the weirdest thing.
This whole week had me feeling like I'm living a Freaky Friday movie. I'm so confused. At first I couldn't understand why people from my past resurfaced like the past 6 months never happened, but now I'm beginning to think... Is this life giving me a second chance to do things right with all the wrong people? Well if this is how I have to repay my karmic debt then I guess I better do it right.
Though it had me thinking. I'd been experiencing the same form of pain over and over again in the last fifteen years. I thought about Radical Forgiveness, a book I once read about how the soul recognises our pain and forces us to relive it so we can heal from our past.
I realise that my pain doesn't stem from the love that was denied by other men, but the love I was denied when I was a child (I can see how dramatic this sounds). I'm not the kind of person to hold a grudge. One thing I hate is to remain bitter about circumstances I have no control of. But I thought I had forgiven the past and healed from all those years of neglect. I didn't think I carried that baggage with me into my adulthood.
I could easily point fingers and blame someone for the hurt they caused but I chose to forgive even when they aren't sorry. So why does this keep happening? How do you heal?
Though it had me thinking. I'd been experiencing the same form of pain over and over again in the last fifteen years. I thought about Radical Forgiveness, a book I once read about how the soul recognises our pain and forces us to relive it so we can heal from our past.
I realise that my pain doesn't stem from the love that was denied by other men, but the love I was denied when I was a child (I can see how dramatic this sounds). I'm not the kind of person to hold a grudge. One thing I hate is to remain bitter about circumstances I have no control of. But I thought I had forgiven the past and healed from all those years of neglect. I didn't think I carried that baggage with me into my adulthood.
I could easily point fingers and blame someone for the hurt they caused but I chose to forgive even when they aren't sorry. So why does this keep happening? How do you heal?
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